At just 19 years old Billie Eilish seems to have everything she wants. However the five-time Grammys winner is opening up about the dark side of success, revealing that she suffered depression during her early years. Keep reading as the “Bad Guy” singer shares her intimate secrets and how she deals with being the world's most famous teenager superstar!
For the 19-year-old music icon fame is overwhelming. She made the comment on the Smartless podcast hosted by Hollywood actors Jason Bateman, Sean Hayes and Will Arnett.
The singer revealed that she felt incredibly vulnerable after becoming a popular star by winning five Grammy Awards. Then she went for an interview and felt she was only pretending to be Billie Eilish, like a parody of herself.
Eilish, who creates music with her older brother Finneas O'Connell, claims that their sound is authentic and Billie feels she was born to perform on stage. Her lyrics are personal and the songs are different, artistic and nothing at all like mainstream music.
Finneas doesn’t think that their music is dark. The producer believes that it reflects the dark times were we are living. When the siblings were recording their first album they were school shootings and wildfires burning in the Los Angeles National forest in California their hometown.
The weird thing in Eilish’s life is that she became famous at such a young age going on tour at 14, 15, and 16. She was crying all the time because she was new to fame it was a big deal for a teen. Billie was on tour and didn’t have friends because she was always leaving her home in LA.
Luckily Billie is growing up and she loves her crew. Now the songstress has a rule that she can’t go on tour for more than four weeks. More than that and it starts to feel like a chore. She is more mature and wants to go back home and see her friends.
The pop star realized that when you’re a teen it’s difficult to talk with adults and kids back home can’t put their lives on hold, waiting for you to come back from tour. She regrets losing touch with friends because of fame.
Billie was only 15 but her rigorous work schedule, performing live and then attending millions of press conferences damaged her health. She had laryngitis, allergies, and had to power through to fulfil all her commitments. Ultimately, she got to a point where she resented her success.
"I just talked s*** about it. All I could do was be like, ‘F*** fame. I hate being famous. I hate all of this.”
She was so depressed that she used to hate being recognized and not being able to go out. Then she learned that people would kill to have her success and she is finally gracoming to terms that 76 million people follow her on Instam and has switched her mindset to accepting and enjoying the benefits of her fame.
Now she can influence her followers and promote the values that are close to her heart, such as animal welfare.
"I don’t really know what changed but I f***ing love fame. I gotta tell you, I love it, I definitely like what I’m doing with it and I feel more confident in it.”
We are really glad that Billie appreciates how incredibly lucky she has been to be able to turn her passion for music into a job, and the positive impact that she can make by having a strong voice and a platform to express.